i’m in Indiana… December 14th, 2007
and things are different here…
I was reading in USA today about how these scientists are predicting that much of the ocean’s coral is going to die by 2050 because of rising carbon emissions. i wondered if people that live here feel connected to the ocean at all, to say nothing of coral reefs. i’m not saying that people from the midwest are ignorant or anything (after all, I’m the one who flew here on a carbon-spewing jet airplane). but i do know that i don’t care much about what i can not see easily. i don’t care much about people that i don’t see often, and that’s kind of sad.
i’m in a wedding tomorrow- my buddy sam is getting married and I’m his best man. last night, i was thinking about my wedding (almost 11 years ago) and about the guys who were in it with me. my brother (my best man) and i are very close friends, which i am SO thankful for, but as for the other guys in the wedding- i never see them. i have no idea what 2 of them are doing, and the thrid one i see once every few years at a party or something. he’s a prison guard, at Shelton. i bet he’s good at it.
it’s not that i’m blaming them, or blaming me… i mentioned this fact last night, and this guy Corey who is in the wedding too said “that’s sort of how it goes, we know people, we move on…” i sort of agree, but i’m not sure. or maybe i’m just uncomfortable with the idea.
i guess the question is, who do i hang on to? i can’t really put a bunch of responsibility on others to keep the connections going, and i don’t really want 1,560 “good friends” in my life. i guess i’m just a bit lost. i don’t want to be completely “ok” with just moving on from people, but i don’t want to carry a long string of shame about how many people i have “let down”.
so, in conclusion, this is a story from bbc news about a kangaroo going nuts and jumping in to the ocean, only to be eaten by a shark.SOMETHING IS BROKEN
